The Ease

I have nothing left but you still want more,

Those threats are as void as a black hole,

Rolling around, destroying with ease,

The place you find yourself in is one of misdeed,

You won’t find me there or anything of light,

The greed seeping with ease,

How easily you part waters, while others bleed,

No need to apologize your apology is coated in hate,

Growing up in a house built of fear & jealousy,

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A cage, a cave, a windowless room,

It was so easy to raise us this way,

Don’t you see? I’m not a little girl anymore, I understand my pain,

Instead of blocking it out in the pouring rain,

I say let the rain pour, let the pouring rain in,

Please, little girl, I want to feel the world.

Nostalgia

Soaking in the warm tub of memories,

Bubbles, and
the movie clips.

The ones that impress true emotion:

Valleys of lush wisdom,

Mountains of hazed cartoons,

Not the TV, there was no TV.

Us, me, we were exploring the tall grass,

Meandering streambeautiful-deviantart-music-photography-sunshine-technology-Favim.com-41861s, inspecting bright stones and lingering bugs.

Air warmed by the sun filling lungs bringing fresh outlooks,

Hooked on outbursts of surrounding beings,

Freeing, inwardly receiving my life unit.

Output depending on my clockwork,

Do I know what time it is?

I think I do, but I don’t want to worry about that anymore.

Turkey Green Bean Peanut Butter Stirfry

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Take a good look at those crisp green onions tumbling over a mountain of steamed green beans and garlic infused turkey *insert inappropriate groans here*

Imagine wafts of fragrant ginger tickling your nose,
riding the salty waves of fish sauce….

Not only that, but they are sauteed in a luxurious creamy peanut sauce…..

Well, WAKE UP MY FRIENDS! You can have this.

*insert halfhearted and slightly confused applause here*

What you’ll need:

3 tbsp olive oil
1-2 tsp fish sauce
2 tbsp soya sauce
2 tbsp creamy peanut butter (I use Adam’s)
1 tbsp brown sugar (feel free to use maple syrup or honey too)
2 tsp lime juice
half a head of garlic, minced
2 tsp ginger, minced
2 green chilies, cut in half lengthwise
1 onion, diced
1 lb ground turkey thigh
1 lb steamed green beans (I like mine crisp, so I don’t steam them too long)
2-3 stalks of green onion chopped, garnish

Directions:

  1. Combine soya sauce, peanut butter, brown sugar and lime juice in a small bowl and mix. Put aside.
  2. Heat olive oil in a wok on medium-high, add your fish sauce and let it quickly cook with the oil. Shortly after add your onions, make sure your wok is hot enough so that when you add the onions there is a big sizzle. Just don’t burn yourself!! *insert howls from the pain here* Stir fry those babies!
  3. After the onions have fried a bit, add the garlic, ginger and chilies. Stir, fry, stir, fry, yummmmmmmmmm. Let these ingredients really infuse the oil. NO BURN.
  4. Next add the minced turkey. Pierce that darn ol’ meat brick with your spoon, soldier. Pierce until it’s shredded into tiny helpless pieces and marching to your command *insert maniacal laugh here* Cook meat until browned.
  5. Make some space in the wok and add the peanut butter/soya sauce/sugar/lime mix that was put aside earlier. Stir it against the bottom so that it cooks, then coat everything in it. Lather that meat and those onions baby! Things were already smelling delicious, but now they’re on another level. A PEANUT BUTTER LEVEL. *insert crickets here*
  6. Last, but not least, add the steamed green beans and toss to mix. Garnish with green onions and voila! You can have this on rice, quinoa, noodles, however you like! How happy are you.Let’s take one more look at this divine creation:
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    UGHHHH TAKE ME NOW GREEN BEANS *insert dramatic faint here*

    Any obvious ingredients/directions I missed please let me know, or if you have any questions/suggestions feel free to comment below. I bid your belly a good day!

    Yours foodly,

    Music Ingrdts.

My Chana Masala (with lame inserts)

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Yes, my friends…you have entered food heaven. Just look at those chickpeas…creamy, spice-oozing balls of lusciousness just waiting to be devoured *insert erotic novel here*

I have had so many requests for my chana masala recipe, so I am here to fulfill those dreams! I would say my recipe is a mishmash of the East African curries I grew up eating and the Punjabi food I’ve become obsessed with living in Surrey, BC *insert Surrey jokes here*. Alright, on with it.

What you’ll need:

4 tbsp olive oil

1 tsp salt (may need more at the end)

4 cups of water (plus some at the beginning when cooking masala base)

2 tsp tomato paste

1 large onion diced

1 large tomato diced

1 large bunch of cilantro roughly chopped

2-3 green chilies cut in half lengthwise 

half-1 whole head of garlic finely diced (the more, the better really)

1-2 tbsp ginger diced (a good garlic-ginger ratio is 3:1)

1.15-ounce (or 2 cups) can of chickpeas, rinsed well

Spices: 2-3 tsp curry powder, 1 tsp cumin, 3-4 tsp turmeric, 1 tbsp garam masala

Directions:

  1. Heat olive oil in a large pot over medium-high, then add onions. Cook onions well until translucent, then add salt, garlic, ginger, green chilies and 1/3 of the chopped cilantro, stir well so that all is coated with oil. It is key from this stage on to make sure nothing burns. If necessary, add a bit of water to help this from happening. Keep cooking mixture down. Give the onions time to turn a bit golden brown.
  2. Add curry powder, cumin, & turmeric to the pot. Make sure your spices do not burn. I find taking the pot off the element quickly (or turning the heat down to medium) while adding the spices prevents this from happening. Transfer the pot back to the element and stir the spices into the mixture. You will now notice that your mixture is quite dry from all the spices. Here you will add some water and scrape the spices off the bottom of the pot, stir so that the spices are coating everything. Let the spices and onion mixture cook down, stirring frequently to prevent burning. Keep cooking until your mixture looks a browny yellow (you’ll notice the onions have nearly melted into the mixture). I cooked mine down for a good 20-25 minutes. I know, very laborious, but totally worth it! Keep going, you can do it! *insert inspiration here*
  3. Next, make some space in the pot with your wooden spoon and drop the tomato paste in, stirring it against the bottom so that it cooks a bit (it should start turning slightly brown). Mix it together with everything. Let that cook a bit. Then add your diced tomato. Now that all of your masala base ingredients are in, this is the part where you MUST let the mixture cook down while stirring regularly. Water is your best friend at this point, KEEP LUBRICATING, OKAY?! *insert crass jokes about dry sex here* I cooked mine for nearly an hour before adding chickpeas in. A good way to tell is to hover your nose over the pot and if you smell raw tomato, it is far from done. You need to cook those tomatoes down until there aren’t any sign of them, and their wee skins crumple up into little spikes of revenge. *insert GoT reference here*Here is what this process looks like (top: step 1-2 bottom: step 3 and what your masala base should look like when it’s ready):
    13312900_10100558280664096_3463045525011343051_nWith this masala base, you are basically a curry superhero. You can make anything from zucchini potato curry to minced beef and peas! *insert orgasmic moans here*
  4. Last, but not least, once your masala base is good to go, add those rinsed chickpeas in and stir them into the masala. Coat those bitches! Add the 4 cups of water, bring to a boil, then semi-cover, leaving a bit open, and simmer for 1.5-2 hours (depending on how creamy and soft you want them. I love mine soft so I cooked them for 2.5 hours, yaaaaaaaas I’m fantastic), stirring intermittently. Near the end add garam masala and stir in. Garnish with the rest of the cilantro and *insert Italian food appreciation kiss thing* you are finished!

*Note: the spices I use do change depending on what I have in the house. If you have whole cumin seeds or mustard seeds, go ahead and toast either one of those in the oil at the very beginning before adding the onions. The spices you really do need are the curry powder, turmeric and garam masala.

The decadent result one more time….ogle at it. OGLE I SAY.

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If I missed listing anything obvious in the ingredients or directions let me know, or if you have any questions/suggestions, comment below! Now off you go and cook this!

Yours foodly,

Music Ingrdts.

The Panic Attack of A Poet: What It’s Like & How I Get To The Other Side

It rises up through vulnerable temples,

Fizzing like a poured soda,

Taking a tour of an endless drop,

An ever darkening ride to a past time.

Shit, I think,

My fingers seething with adrenaline,

A never-ending heart race,

Palpable like heartache.

I know what is to come,

And I am certain this is the uninvited guest.

Nevertheless, a trying defense, my mind mending fences:

If an open sea can carry its waves,

So can I and sleep soundly in graves.

I turn around to meet the fear,

One so dark depth disappears.

I am hurled through this vacuum,

Will it ever end? Desperation then thickly spreads,

Trapped in the pores of uneasing breads.

Just when my thoughts try to transcend,

A river of pain seeps out of my lens.

 

Don’t worry, it will be over soon, a faraway thought suddenly reminds.

 

The words mix like water and oil,

Hopelessly stirring forever and ever.

 

The words mix like water and sugar,

Hopefully stirring for better and better.

 

The words mix like water and syrup,

A seamless stirring of thought and spirit.

 

This is a homecoming. You are here, and you are home.

There isn’t anywhere you need to be, and there isn’t anyone you need to see.

Your source of comfort is simply there, in you, for you, all the time.

It is unlimited, and it is specifically yours.

In no way does it impose on or interfere with your free will.

It is unconditional. It is you. It is love.

 

The Embrace

I keep trying to resist,

I keep trying to hold the pieces together.

Each one carelessly glued on,

How am I supposed to attend to them all?

I’ve been riding the train of optimism for far too long,

And my body can feel it.

It needs a break from feeling whole,

It needs a rest from being strong,

But I’m holding on for dear life.

A fear so familiar it tastes like me,

A fear so insidious it’s been there all along,

Underlining my movements,

Magnifying my judgments.

It is not until I tune into the waves and nuances that I finally find compassion,

A meeting of love and pain,

A uniting of loss and empathy.

This is my home, this is my temple,

And I am here to listen to you, my dear.